alittletree

Yesterday was amazing.  I helped a fellow stylist put together a charity event to benefit our Haitian brothers and sisters.  It was super last minute.  Like everything had to come together within a couple of days to be ready by yesterday.  It was at a bar with silent auction for donated art pieces.
I'm pleased to say that with the given situation, we were able to raise about $5000! Ten of my photos got purchased!  One of them even sold for 5x more than the starting bid!  This is monumental b/c my art was part of the monetary contribution, but also b/c this was the first time I had shown my artwork publicly in New York.  
Thank you to everyone who came out to support us, and more importantly support Haiti by bidding and making donations.  There will be an ongoing art auction online as Haiti's need for aid will be ongoing.

Happy MLK day!

why is my gender so full of vindictive catty bitches?
if one of us is attractive, then why must the rest of the hens gather and plot against her?  its not her fault she was blessed with good looks.  have you noticed that about women?  its like a natural instinct or something.
i'm not really one who acts like that or looks like that...but i'm terribly bothered and quite frankly embarrassed of my gender b/c of this.

why are men so good at leading people on???  its some sick game they're playing. i hate hearing them talk about it.  

when will things get better?

so all i can do is think of this sad quote.  i am so hurt right now.  this sucks.  this sucks so hard.

I have wasted thousands and thousands of kisses on you - kisses that I thought were special because of your lips and your smile and all your color and life. I used to think that was the real you, when you smiled. But now I know you don't mean any of it. You just save it for all your songs. Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tight.
-Faye from "That Thing You Do"


aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

there was a time in my life when all i could do was cry.
these days i only feel the pressure building up in my face and my body
automatically fights it.
don't fight it.  i need to release this.

i hate him.

i do.
better yet, i just want to be that soup.
i want to do for you what you once did for me.